My sister has gotten married. The first of four to be married and she's the third child... I'm second oldest and have no real prospects... anywho my older sister is with her boyfriend and has three kids. All boys and all oh so cute! But yea I'm happy she's married she's so happy and he's so great!
School... well not going so well... I start out with a bag and fizzle fast! But the semesters almost over and I'm happy about that.
Anywho... I just finished reading The Shack by William Paul Young and its done something inside of me. I've grown up with many many issues because of being molested as a child, being shown pornography at a young age, and having hatred towards men and blaming them and my father for all things that have attacked me or that have brought me emotionally and mentally down the drain.
I need to work on those issues but for right now I just want to focus on what has been tapped on inside of me. I'm not sure what yet... I need to read the book once more for a clearer picture but the way it is written truly awakened something.
The writer writes the conversations that God, Jesus and Sarayu have with a normal person. It makes me see the connection that God has with humankind. How he wants to get to their level and just reconnect. The way Jesus loves us is undeniable shone through the pages and the free spirited "Sarayu" a.k.a. the wind, the Great Spirit, or more commonly named the Holy Spirit. It brings so much light to the truth that is the trinity. Understandable it is a story but based on true events. Yet it is so revolutionary and so clear and simple.
Why do we humans hide in the complexity of shadows and our sins. To hide in our sins we give them power and by shinning the light we become freer. But its so hard to allow that freedom into our lives. All we know is the sin and how it feels and how it treats us. But all He wants is us to trust Him that He will love us in any condition. We are all His children. He will hold us and protect us.
But the first step is not having the need for it but the want. Do I want to be freed? Because I know I need it...
