Awaiting

The leaves turn

Telling of the changing times

They fall

As if the sorrow of the world falls with it

The cold comes

Covering every inch of warmth

Erasing the memories of season before this

To be full and blooming

Like the day when spring comes

Awaiting the laughter

Awaiting the rains for summer

And yet its cold

Dark

Days get shorter

My happiness seems to drain

Living in the cold and dark

Living in the ugly

Just waiting for the beauty

Beauty of me

Beauty of life

Beauty of rebirth

Perched

I tried to let her go

Flapping her wings in her cage

She told me she wanted to go

She ruffled her feathers

Squawked all she could

I sat her cage on the window sill

Opened her cage

And she sat there

She didn’t move

Just looked out on what happiness could be

Afraid to move

Afraid to release what she was pretending to hold on to

The day came and went 

She sat in her cage perched

Once the sun was hiding from her

She finally signaled me to move her back to her table

To fight for another day

To pretend that her existence is needed else where

I still wonder why the caged bird sings

When her freedom has been given to her

And yet she still doesn't want it

Unraveling

Hundreds of threads yet you pick the one that unravels it all

As if you knew which one would make it all unreal

Now things are breaking and there is no connection

Everything’s falling apart

Falling away

Washing down the river into the sea to erode away

I’m dissolving away

My love

My life

Just floating away to the sound of nothing

No one around to watch the image unfold

Trying to hold on the last pieces of me

Trying to hold on to the emptiness that felt real

The emptiness that made me feel alive

How do I pick up the disfigured pieces and make me whole again...