so this passed weekend was halloween! Tons of candy tons of dressing up and fun... for all but not me. I got home at 4pm feel asleep by 5pm and awoke at 9pm from a text from my sister telling me to come over and hang out but i was so tired i just kept sleeping. Needless to say I was supposed to get a phone call from a "friend/co-worker" to go out on our night off and have a good time. So when i checked my phone at 9pm there was no text, no missed called, no voicemail... NOTHING... ok... understandable he might of forgotten so I just let it go...
Sunday evening i stroll in to work and he is acting completely nonchalant about it and was weird. As if he knew he had done something wrong... so I let it go as whatever and tried to let it go but its really been bothering me. Its as if he teased me and then dropped me. I know thats probably not what his intentions were but ever since he came back into town... (he left to go to school but decided it wasn't his scene so he came back) he's been completely avoiding hanging out and just out with everyone else in town. I believe the only reason we hung out was because he had no one else to hang out with so there...
He's apparently coming over for our "grown up" thanksgiving and I'm not really happy about it... so yea thats all... I worried other people might show up too that we don't want at our thanksgiving...
on a side note... sorry this is all negative... outside this blogger site... I am very positive i carry a smile and no one sees my worries or frustrations or even see my sadness so i listen to indie and folk and sad depressing music while no one listens and find myself feeling. Just feeling... When everyone else sees me as a happy person i'm not always feeling... i'm not always the way i look... because i don't allow them to see what's behind my looking glass... whether or not this is read i enjoy leaving my scattered thoughts all over this page...
oh other side note... my car is a piece of SH*T! its not working... AGAIN! i hate it but whatever... hope its just the battery and nothing else wrong with it... ok thats all...
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