So Heavy

Its coming to an end

Its finally ending

But I can’t seem to cross that line

I can’t seem to reach  it

I find things to stop me from running

To find another course

I want to live pretending

I want to play the fantasy

Thinking I will surpass it if I...

If I don’t think about it

So heavy my heart feels

So weighed down

I can’t seem to carry it anymore

I try pushing it along

I try rolling it

And nothing

I’m stuck at the bottom of a well

I’m drowning

And no one can hear me

The weight of everything is coming down fast

I’m frightened

I’m scared

I’m screaming at the world and there is no one around

There is nothing that can alleviate this storm

The winds picking up

And I’m afraid I will get destroyed

I’m afraid that I will not live to see the next day

To see the seasons change

To see the next chapter in my book

To revert to when I was innocent

Craving to be a child once more

But it will never be that way again

It will never be as easy as a child skipping rocks over the water

Ok then if my heavy heart wont move

If I can’t seem to take another step

Then let it hit me

Let it chip away at me

Let it break me down

I will stay until I am ready to move on

I will stay at the bottom of that well until my arms are strong enough to carry me out

I will stay until I am ready to finish that race