Not Just a Fling

Just a nothing fling

That is what you think I’ll bring

Just a passing boat in an endless ocean

Yet I have more than these emotions

I have more than these feelings

Yet I lay here trying to pass through these ceilings

Its as if you want to put a cap on this

But there will be something that’s amiss

My heart that is yearning for more

Instead of finding the floor

If only there was some kind of contract

Instead of trying to find your love in the abstract

Everything is so loud

Am I even allowed

To tell you more

I can’t seem to ignore

This noise thats coming to a crescendo

But there was no innuendo

As to if I was more

Or if you saw me as a bore

And now I am hoping and wishing

That you weren’t just fishing

Yet I see now through my tears

That you will never find anything like this through your years

I was never meant for a fleeting love

So here I am making you free of

Of the bond that was created

For it was never awaited

Instead it was a love that was despised

Yet this love will never be chastised
It will be free of the undetectable
And be kept respectable
Finding another heart
That will not want to depart
And feel no doubt
About the one thing they could not be without