Stand Out

Standing at the edge of the pier

As your train leaves the station

It was the last time

My heart broke

The last time I allowed you to try to hold on to me

The last time I allowed you to need me

How destructive have you been to me

How destructive has this love been

I’ve only shed tears

Being told there’s nothing good in it

Only hearing others saying it will end up in disaster

Yet I wouldn’t hear it

I didn’t want to hear it

All I wanted was to fix you and me

Fix the broken parts

But you wouldn’t allow it

It was only your way

I accepted it because I loved you

I accepted it because I needed you

And you needed me

But how could this work

How could it if you wouldn’t give me air to breathe

You kept suffocating me

With your emotions

Your mental state

Your depraved heart

But you never gave me the time I needed

You never allowed me to stand on my own

It was only if I stood with you in front of me

With you holding my hand

With you checking my every step

How could this be love

How could this be more

Today I saw you get on that train

I broke because I believed my love was leaving on it

But in reality it was because it hurt to shed that part of me

It hurt not to run with you

But I can’t keep standing in your shadow

I can’t keep staying hidden

I need to step out on my own

And turn my back on having to hold your hand

Turn my back at standing with someone

And stand on my own