Stop the Echoes

The empty halls

How the echoes bounce off them

The sounds of war

Warring whether I should love you or hate you

I don’t know if I should keep holding on to this nothingness you have given me

To keep saying I owe you something

When there is nothing owed

I keep holding on to those memories of when I had you completely

When I had you

I scream

And still can’t get the image of you from my mind

There are days when the mirage of you keeps me happy

But its not you

Its not what you are

Its what I pretend you are

And so it helps me keep sane

Helps me from not flying off into the dark abyss

I loved you and slowly am starting to hate you

Slowly am starting to erase anything of you

Any trace of you

Trying to cover up what you left behind

But those echoes

Of wanting you

The echoes of needing you

The echoes of what used to be haunts me still

Things keep moving

Falling apart all around me

The world is moving at a fast pace

And all I hear are echoes

All I see is the replaying of you and me

All I feel are the shards of broken glass hitting my skin

I feel the ash and the the wind that keeps moving around me

But I can’t really feel it

I can’t really feel that pain

It doesn’t compare to the pain I feel

The loss I have

Those echoes

Thats all I can seem to focus on

I can’t seem to remove the images

The voices

The memories

I want to just drown myself from all this depravity

I want to die as the love dies

I want to seize to exist like the emotions you have for me

To forget me

To forget you

To have this world remove anything we left behind

And then maybe then the echoes will stop

Then maybe everything will stop